Wednesday, 10 December 2014
Thursday, 20 November 2014
Wednesday, 19 November 2014
I watched Starving in Surburbia on Sunday morning and I have to say I am not sure what the fuss was about... It doesn't really give a true reflection of some pro ana sites. I know that some of these sites are really bad, and they show the worst side of pro ana. It made me wonder whether people really understand the difference between pro ana and pro anorexia.
Pro Ana - Is a community of sufferers that DO NOT wish to recover at this point in their life. In these communities people share their concerns plans and daily gripes with a community of people who suffer with an ED. They do not give tips or tricks, they do not encourage Eating Disorders and in my experience they would never "teach" someone to develop an ED as they see ED's as a psychological illness and not a "diet".
Pro Anorexia - Is a community of people who worship ana. They share tips/tricks to help each other become "better" at hiding their ED's and they also allow people who do not have ED's to join.
I think it is difficult to separate the two as they are so close. But in my opinion pro ana sites are there as away of getting support from people who have similar issues, and again in my experience they offer information on Recovery and Support. Pro anorexia sites do not.
I would say that I am pro ana (not pro anorexia), but the media have labelled the pro ana community as the worst of the worst. I am aware that my disorder is a psychological disease. I am aware that my ideal bodyweight is low, and by other means unattainable. But I am not ready to recover at the moment, as sad as it sounds, I don't feel sick... I don't feel ill enough or thin enough to need to recover.
I am not sure if this makes sense but over the years I have met some people I will consider to be lifelong friends via pro ana sites. But I would never give tips or tricks to people. Its sick and wrong.
Sunday, 16 November 2014
I am sorry about my absence of late. I've been busy with a new computer game. I'm a nerd, a girl gamer :-)
In other news even though I had a huge meal on Friday night (more like a binge) I've lost another 4.6lbs. It a just not enough...
I have also been busy clearing out and listing clothes that are to big for me now on eBay. That way I can never allow myself to get to that size again. as I'd have no clothes to wear.
Peace out my silent readers.
- Anna xx
- Anna xx
- Anna xx
Wednesday, 12 November 2014
Tuesday, 11 November 2014
1.5 pounds = a dozen Krispy Kreme glazed donuts
2 pounds = a rack of baby back ribs
3 pounds = an average human brain
4 pounds = an ostrich egg
5 pounds = a Chihuahua
6 pounds = a human’s skin
7.5 pounds = an average newborn
8 pounds = a human head
10 pounds= chemical additives an American consumes each year
11 pounds = an average housecat
12 pounds = a Bald Eagle
15 pounds = 10 dozen large eggs
16 pounds = a sperm whale’s brain
20 pounds = an automobile tire
23 pounds = amount of pizza an average American eats in a year
24 pounds = a 3-gallon tub of super premium ice cream
25 pounds = an average 2 year old
30 pounds = amount of cheese an average American eats in a year
33 pounds = a cinder block
36 pounds = a mid-size microwave
40 pounds = a 5-gallon bottle of water or an average human leg
44 pounds = an elephant’s heart
50 pounds = a small bale of hay
55 pounds = a 5000 BTU air conditioner
60 pounds = an elephant’s penis (yep, weights more than his heart!)
66 pounds = fats and oils an average American eats in a year
70 pounds = an Irish Setter
77 pounds = a gold brick
80 pounds = the World’s Largest Ball of Tape
90 pounds = a newborn calf
100 pounds = a 2 month old horse
111 pounds = red meat an average American eats in a year
117 pounds = an average fashion model (and she’s 5’11”)
118 pounds = the complete Encyclopedia Britannica
120 pounds = amount of trash you throw away in a month
130 pounds = a newborn giraffe
138 pounds = potatoes an average American eats in a year
140 pounds = refined sugar an average American eats in a year
144 pounds = an average adult woman (and she’s 5’4”)
150 pounds = the complete Oxford English Dictionary
187 pounds = an average adult man
200 pounds = 2 Bloodhounds
235 pounds = Arnold Schwarzenegger
300 pounds = an average football lineman
400 pounds = a Welsh pony
I have some time off coming up too, I have managed to work it in line with the release of Warlords of Draenor so I will be at level 100 in no time.
Monday, 10 November 2014
Friday, 7 November 2014
Wednesday, 5 November 2014
So I was asked on a forum I moderate “What are you sick and tired of”… Well, I could probably go on forever but I will try and keep it short and sweet.
I wish I could just wake up and this all to have been a nightmare... but it isn't, it's my life.
Monday, 3 November 2014
- No Alcohol.
- No Pastry.
- No Bread.
- No Chips.
- No Takeaway food.
- No eating in my car.
- No Snacking between meals.
Thursday, 30 October 2014
Wednesday, 29 October 2014
Tuesday, 28 October 2014
I'm out and about today so I'm using a mobile app to send this post. I hope it comes out ok.
I weighed in this morning and I feel sick. I've gained over 4lbs while I have been ill. Through comfort eating and binging on foods that should never pass my lips. I'm back at 280lbs. Fuck that.
I'm due to go for a staff meal out this afternoon with my colleagues. I'm going to select the lowest calorie item on the menu and eat half of it. It's difficult eating around people I don't know. But we are all going.
I have now decided that instead of allowing myself treat days. I'm just going to stick to my rules.
No eating after 7pm AT ALL.
I am also going to walk my dog every day do a plank every morning for one minute (it will be more like 6 x 10 seconds).
20 lunges (each leg)
I can't continue like this. I have clothes that I loved wearing last year and now I can't fit my boobs or bum into them.
No more! I am taking control back.
- Anna xx
- Anna xx
Monday, 27 October 2014
Monday, 20 October 2014
Wednesday, 15 October 2014
Tuesday, 14 October 2014
Monday, 13 October 2014
Friday, 10 October 2014
I have been thinking about getting away somewhere for a few days. An old friend just offered to put me up in Dublin for a week, despite the fact he is with someone and so am I… I have politely declined, even if we attempted to go away as friends, there has always been a underlying romance that never was… it’s like the song Romeo and Juliet, the timing was ALWAYS wrong. I do adore him but I am in love with my BF. So I can’t even consider his proposal. However Dublin is lovely.
- Black Forest, Germany
Thursday, 9 October 2014
Wednesday, 8 October 2014
Monday, 6 October 2014
Friday, 3 October 2014
Thursday, 2 October 2014
Wednesday, 1 October 2014
Monday, 29 September 2014
This weekend I had a night out with my best friend. We had a really good catch up and headed to our local pub. I spent the majority of yesterday afraid to move in case I threw up, I have not been that hung over in a long time. I had a burger yesterday which I am so ashamed of.
Wednesday, 24 September 2014
Tuesday, 23 September 2014
Monday, 22 September 2014
Friday, 19 September 2014
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