I feel shocking today. I had my results through from the Dr’s
that my smear test is abnormal. So now I have had a biopsy and I am going to
have to wait a further 4-6weeks to see if the changes indicate cancer. Since I
had the biopsy I have been eating more than I do normally. It is more the stuff
that I wouldn’t normally eat, like chips, sweets and chocolate bars.
That being said, because of that I haven’t actually weighed
in this morning, I feel fatter than normal, and more bloated, the specialist
has told me that it is normal to feel this way, and that it could last for a
couple of weeks. I am due on my period anyway, so that’s going to be fun this
month as it may be heavier.
I am trying to be more positive still. I am trying to be a
bit more “self loving” too, so doing things like moisturising and painting my
nails etc… Though I have been a bit slack on this of late; I have not been
showing myself “enough” kindness, just the bare minimum. In the spirit of
looking after myself I had some rice crispies for breakfast and a lunch meal
from the shop for lunch. Now I feel so bloated and sick :X
I just don’t think I can cope with a normal eating pattern.
Not after living the way I have for so long… I have been reading up about diets
for different Zodiac signs, I have always believed in horoscopes as mine seem to
be extremely dead on. I am a Cancer, I was born on the cusp of Gemini… check
this quote out…. Tension,
anxiety, and emotional stress are the leading causes of illness among
Cancerians.
I suffer with anxiety, depression and my weight is high
due to emotional eating…
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