GOAL ACHIEVED

So this morning I hit GW 4

250lbs

I have broken my GW's into smaller chunks to make it easier to achieve them seeing as though I have so much to lose.

I am going to reward myself in a different way though, instead of rewarding myself with Treats for me.

I am going to reward my family with activities and days out.

Good Day

Having a ball at the moment - absolutely loving life, which is mainly down to that high you get when you're succeeding in restricting and also the pain meds have kicked in.

Weight 252.
(-2.8lbs)
Happy days.

At least its going the right way, I have managed 2/3 days to the gym this week, my muscles ache but I like it.

I have been mainly struggling recently with binging on a night, hopefully I can snap out of that, the little victories I have had the last few nights, have been that I have not binged :) WTF. I have eaten small measured portions of the things I would usually binge on ( candy / chocolate and pastries). I am proud of that, I am going to start posting my binges on my blog and PAO.

How is everyone, I am feeling strong and powerful right now. Though that will change when I am sat on my own tonight, I am sure I will soon resort to my usually afraid and down state. 

Mood...

CW: 254.2

So my current mood is meh! I legit feel so run down and tired and I have no energy or motivation. This sucks.

I keep saying I need to get back on track - when what I really need is to stop saying that. What I need to do, is stop saying that I need to do things.

My ideas for motivation:
Reading Blogs
Reading Books
Playing with my Daughter
Researching Diet Plans
Researching Workout Plans
Working out at the gym.
Working out at home.
Self Care.

Does any one have any suggestions for the above of things that they think will help me get my head together?

Goals

It has been a while since we last spoke - I am still here... in limbo... 

Good days and bad - the usual. 

CW: 254lbs. 

I spent around 3/4 months off the gym, just lolling around and not losing weight. Stuck in another binge/restrict cycle. 

That ended around 4 weeks ago. 

Over those three/four months I didnt gain more than 4lbs. But I'd finally got under 250lbs so I am sad that I am back over. 

Even though I didn't lose weight, I felt my body changing, I lost inches from my Thighs/Hips and Waist. 

New goals. 

• Under 250lbs by Monday 13th May 2019.
• Around 225lbs by 31st July 2019
• Track every day on MyNetDiary. 
• Update journal.