I feel torn...

I am literally fighting myself now! I need to lose weight, I want to restrict and feel the pounds melt away, but I'm breastfeeding, if I don't eat I can't feed my daughter. I need to keep reminding myself that she is most important. Who am I kidding, I don't even need to remind myself, she is most important full stop! 

I can wait to lose the weight again... I'm back at my pre pregnancy bloated fatness! So that's a plus.

In case you're wondering

So. Ive been away a long while...

There is a huge reason for that.... A huge reason.

I'm pregnant. 34weeks. Due in just under 40 days!

I've really made a huge effort to recover and be better for my daughter. I needed to make sure I was healthy for her to be.

I've gained weight, I'm not worried about it, and I'm confident that I'll be able to make positive changes when she's here.

So until we meet again...