Thursday, 4 June 2015

I've fallen down the rabbit hole...

I am feeling quite high today, Im in a good mood, I feel like I am in a good place, BUT.

I've started fasting/restricting again. It was inevitable, it was always going to happen again.

SW: 1st June,  288.8lbs

4th June 284lbs.

I had a fast day yesterday. I limited myself to 151cals throughout the whole day. Today I will mainly be eating fruit. (I have an apple a Satsuma and a Banana with me). So I should manage a sub 200 day today again.

Monday, 1 June 2015

Update - June 1st 2015

My oh My!!! ITs been months since I last posted on here - life just flies by doesn't it, and we are just here to enjoy the ride (or not enjoy it)...

Since I last updated here I have officially regained all of my weight I had lost. I am 4lbs off my HW and not very happy about it. I am now starting again fresh - I have had my fun (binging on whatever I wanted) and now I am here to stay... here to lose weight.

I am starting a June challenge. I have set myself a target of not binging outside of my meal and snack times, and I also want to lose 8.8lbs. This will bring me back to 280...

I have has a meal plan devised by a Personal Trainer and I am hoping that if I follow it I will be able to stop the late night snacking on shit, anyway - I'm going to update you all now. If anyone would like to view this diet plan then let me know and I will upload it.

Things with work are going really well, I am getting more and more confident and I have made some friends that I am hoping I will keep for a long time. I get the impression its a bit one sided with some people, like I will go out of my way for them, but they don't do the same for me. The company I am working for lost some major contracts so it looks like we will be transferred to a new employer at some point towards the end of this year or beginning of next, so we will just see from there.

Things at home are good, My OH (Other Half) and I are in a really good place, we are in looove :) and I love being in Love with him!! We almost split over Christmas but that has all changed now and we are in a really good place which I am happy about. My dogs are both good, though my bitch is in heat at the moment, we are going to have to get her spayed at some point soon as she keeps having Phantom Pregnancies. Some douche bag drove into my car last week too so I need to get it repaired this week.

I am not quite sure how I am, my anxiety has been worse over the last few months than it has been in a while, but I am coping with it. I had an abnormal smear test last year, so I am having to have further testing done on that. I am also being tested for PCOS (Poly Cystic Ovary Syndrome) which I am not to thrilled about, but who knows, it would explain a lot, but I am not there yet.

Eating Disorder wise I have been stuck in a binge cycle for around 4 months. I am hoping to follow the meal plan that my PT has written for me for the next 3/4 weeks and I am hoping it will kick start my weight-loss so that I can get back on track again, as I am really not happy at the moment.